I like that the course tells us that there are no upsets bigger or lesser than another. It was a little bit confusing at first because it seemed like there were bigger upsets than others. What helped me understand this concept was when sitting in circles during the many years of therapy I attended to help me walk through abusive memories. Others told their stories and I noticed that no matter how big the horror, I felt the pain. So whether it was horrific sexual, mental abuse or a story of a car accident, what I felt appeared to be the same amount of hurt/pain inside me. So many stories and so much pain. I see now that the pain I felt was reflecting my own pain and it was always the same. The only thing that changed was how much I wanted to ignore it or stuff it further down. At the end of the day every story I heard, including my own, disturbed my peace of mind.
“Nothing but the laws of God has ever been, and nothing but His Will will ever be. You are created through His laws and by His Will, and the manner of your creation established you a creator. What you have made is so unworthy of you that you could hardly want it, if you were willing to see it as it is. You will see nothing at all. And your vision will automatically look beyond it, to what is in you and all around you. Reality cannot break through the obstructions you interpose, but it will envelop you completely when you let them go.” T-10.IV.5:5-10
I will speak here for myself...Jesus is being very direct. No laws are possible except God’s laws and God’s Will. Because God is the Creator and He created me like Him, I too must create. If I were willing to see this, I would look upon my apparent creations and see how unworthy they are of me. He is telling me how magnificent I am, beyond my wildest dreams and then some, and how insignificant what I think I made is. He tells me quite clearly that I (with my physical eyes) see nothing. And if I were willing to listen to Him and use (Christ) vision I would look beyond what I think I made and be aware of what is in me and all around me (HEAVEN/GOD). He takes a stand with me and says (this is the same as the analogy of a loving parent not radically waking up the sleeping child who is having a dream/nightmare in care of them, not to frighten them), Reality cannot break through the obstructions I have put in front of my self to block the awareness of Love’s presence, however it can and will surround me completely (this is where the reassurance is told us again – we are still and ever will be in the loving arms of God forever) once I let go of my need to believe and use my small will and small laws to keep me seemingly safe. I still think I can protect my self. I cannot. I believe I are alone, separate from God and have to protect my self from seeming enemies. The Truth however, is, I am not alone. I fear the dark, thinking that somehow, somewhere, someone is going to get me and harm me. This is only in my dream. God has always loved and protected me and all ways will. I have never left His loving arms. I cannot leave His loving arms. I only THINK I can and so it appears that way. This is, of course, not true and never has been. Thank God.
"There are no small upsets. They are all equally disturbing to our peace of mind." ACIM
ReplyDeleteI like that the course tells us that there are no upsets bigger or lesser than another. It was a little bit confusing at first because it seemed like there were bigger upsets than others. What helped me understand this concept was when sitting in circles during the many years of therapy I attended to help me walk through abusive memories. Others told their stories and I noticed that no matter how big the horror, I felt the pain. So whether it was horrific sexual, mental abuse or a story of a car accident, what I felt appeared to be the same amount of hurt/pain inside me. So many stories and so much pain. I see now that the pain I felt was reflecting my own pain and it was always the same. The only thing that changed was how much I wanted to ignore it or stuff it further down.
DeleteAt the end of the day every story I heard, including my own, disturbed my peace of mind.
“Nothing but the laws of God has ever been, and nothing but His Will will ever be. You are created through His laws and by His Will, and the manner of your creation established you a creator. What you have made is so unworthy of you that you could hardly want it, if you were willing to see it as it is. You will see nothing at all. And your vision will automatically look beyond it, to what is in you and all around you. Reality cannot break through the obstructions you interpose, but it will envelop you completely when you let them go.”
ReplyDeleteT-10.IV.5:5-10
I will speak here for myself...Jesus is being very direct. No laws are possible except God’s laws and God’s Will. Because God is the Creator and He created me like Him, I too must create. If I were willing to see this, I would look upon my apparent creations and see how unworthy they are of me. He is telling me how magnificent I am, beyond my wildest dreams and then some, and how insignificant what I think I made is.
DeleteHe tells me quite clearly that I (with my physical eyes) see nothing. And if I were willing to listen to Him and use (Christ) vision I would look beyond what I think I made and be aware of what is in me and all around me (HEAVEN/GOD). He takes a stand with me and says (this is the same as the analogy of a loving parent not radically waking up the sleeping child who is having a dream/nightmare in care of them, not to frighten them), Reality cannot break through the obstructions I have put in front of my self to block the awareness of Love’s presence, however it can and will surround me completely (this is where the reassurance is told us again – we are still and ever will be in the loving arms of God forever) once I let go of my need to believe and use my small will and small laws to keep me seemingly safe. I still think I can protect my self. I cannot. I believe I are alone, separate from God and have to protect my self from seeming enemies. The Truth however, is, I am not alone. I fear the dark, thinking that somehow, somewhere, someone is going to get me and harm me. This is only in my dream. God has always loved and protected me and all ways will. I have never left His loving arms. I cannot leave His loving arms. I only THINK I can and so it appears that way. This is, of course, not true and never has been. Thank God.